* she said she wanted 2 dance : a little romance ?

listening to: wimpy sister . hardcore superstar
mood: bah

yoyoyo. let's see what's up here. we're in the summervacation, and right now my living is crap ! seriously, i eat breakfast and dinner. and that's that. the only thing i take in besides from that is coffee, and a'fuckin'lot ! i don't get a second more thhan five hours of sleep from five in the morning to ten in the morning, if i even get that much. like today, i woke up at nine. slept four hours.

but, weird enough, i'm very happy and well. i feel so happy i could dance over a rainbow ! hahaha, okay that sounds too jolly.

okay, let's take a brainstorm through the last couple of days:
lærke, an internet friend of mine, went to london and said hello to tommy (other friend) from me. very nice of her, he looks good with his new hair !

i've been talking alot with pongo, and also got a bigbigbig crush on a band called marionette. it fawkin rawks, i love it sooo much ! melodic deathmetal, oh yeah <3>

i've been chatting alot with the guitarist aron and keyboardist linus, they're reeeally nice guys ! i even did an artpad drawing of linus you can check out here: http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=8421632852399564794#think it turned out pretty good. and he liked it, so wtf.
other creative things with marionette, i've been doing a drawing of their logo with the 'marionette' writing in the middle, turned out great too, i think.
besides from that i've been trying to make a marionette-video with the best and funniest moments of their diary videos. but for some reason movie maker won't save it. okay, not for 'some reasen', i know what the problem is. but nothing relevant.
i guess that's it when it comes to marionette creativity.
well, i got my deathstars drawing sent to skinny disco and he thanked me alot and said it was amazing work. hehe. it's soo nice to get compliments from other artists !
a friend of mine i haven't talked with in, like, a year contacted me some weeks ago, and now we just talk constantly ! i love it, cause back then he meant so much to me, and he of course still did in that whole year, bt it was just... sad not talking to him at all. so happy to have my good ol' acey back <3 href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2e02VqMOMhyphenhyphenRx_Q30sJeLTucBN73cUkp2J5a4xe73jGwiG4tcSDyCHudqJD_xj1Gr4aiZhHOqLPkD3uMrrfMSMLnebxiUHKaYFbtRFy6eigtlK8WWLpiryv5atYnjz-la85R12CK0fAE/s1600-h/untitled.bmp">of him and his new tattoo for me because he thought it was tripp eisen who was back in dope, but then found out it was tripp tribbett. so that was his apologize, and i looove it <3>


i have to leave riiight now to find out if i can come visit pongo. the bus goes in an half hour!

* Cliaz . Catt ~

* with u:2 u:near u:4 u//everyday ~

listening to: what i feel . satiate
mood: tired. hungry.

babie, come home. i miss you. i don't know how i feel, the only thing i know is i want you home to talk with you. my very special girl...
argh, fuck love.

marionette, i love you. i wanna see you live again soon...
korn, deathstars x2, flyleaf, sonic syndicate, marionette... famous bands i've seen live. what an empty life. baah. been to two concerts (y)
bah.

i love life. hah. dunno what my point is with this. i love me, i love my life. done.
i should get some sleep. in the past three days i've slept 11 hours. not in a row, no.
im tired...

* cliaz . catt ~

* shell never ever b the 1 ~

listening to: shame by hardcore superstar
mood: uhm, tired.

che guevara's staring at me from his place beside my bed. and i like it.
my twitter account went up by five followers when cat got mad at me. thanks, kittie (y)
and thanks to lé stalkies too.

this is thursday. my very last day of normal school lessons. tomorrow it's goodbye-cry day.
hm. i don't feel sad. can't wait to get moving.

my nephew who's 2-3 years old is here. i hate him. i really do, i hate all small kids. and stfu about i have been a kid once, cause i'm not anymore.
god, i hate kids. never gonna get them. i would just rip their head off from being stupid.
no, i'd like a cat. a kitty cat, and then raise it. yep (y)

to everyone readong this crap, check out danish metalband volbeat. it's some of the best music you'll ever hear.

now i'm listening to maroon 5... wtf.

* Cliaz . Catt ~

* shame : baptized by jealousy ~

Listening to: dreamer . ozzy osbourne
Mood: dunno really. pissed ?

ever felt like you said the right things, you did what you needed to do and then... the fuckaroo changes? to be more precise, saying everything you wants to, and then realize nothing really went through. you know, sometimes you suffer alot for just one person. sometimes you give all what you have to build that connection up. and you start thinking this is special, this is us, this is just perfect. the love, the trust. okay. i asked for a fawkin break. now you doubt me, i can't believe. it's like everything i said to you through these three months just is bullshit now, fucking stop twisting the truth.
i never ever lied.

what made me do it ? i don't know. i know i love you. but sometimes that's just not enough to make it work. and for me, it didn't work. maybe we should have talked it over. maybe ?
but we didn't. you're too sensitive. i don't give a fuck if your life have been shit, i really don't. cause that's nothing i knew. so it doesn't change a fuck now at all. cut the crap.

in the end, i never really loved you. i can't. love is not an able feeling for me anymore, it was taken away by the biggest asshole i've never met. i hate him. and he doesn't even know my exist. sad story? guess so.
argh, good god. i did love you. but in a way i can't explain, and you don't understand anyway.
and now you blame me for your pain, well take a look at me. do you really wanna be with someone who just feels bad about it? no? thought so. leave me alone and fuck your sentences about how i let you down cause i never fucking did. you have NO IDEA how much i love you, and if you doubt me now... if you just doubt me a scond, then get the fuck away. really. cause then you're really not worth it.
sorry to be pissed. i'm not mad at you. just what you say about me. the fact you hung up the phone just to write to me. wtf? can't you talk to me?

i'm tired. and relieved.
i'm happy for the choice i took. stop saying it's over, cause it's not. i just need to find out about some stuff.
you know what. yesterday night i talked with pongo for more than an hour. and we talked about all kind of fucked up shit, we laughed like hell, and i'm still smiling! because i believe there's a big chance, stop being such a crybaby, i told you hundred times how i mean this.
listen to what i said, not ask what i didn't. cause i really said it all.
i'm sick. tired. i don't get how you can be like this, i really thought you were different than that.
i'm so fucking tired of your 'i'll change'-crap. you're not going to change any fucking thing, okay? that's what pissing me off, your weakness. believe in yourself instead of that fuckaroo. change yourself, never. fuck that shit. if you fitted to my behavior, what fun is there then? if you have to pretend to be someone else, what the hell is left of you then? when it's you i want?

everything i didn't tell, is because i know you would use it to something. and you're not going to.
life's not easy. cut the crap about your hard life, you never told me anything.
i'm tired of taking care of people who's older than me.
stop whining and get over it, cause right now i can't stand you, and this was not the fucking way it should be.

i really thought you were smarter than this bullshit

* Cliaz . Catt ~

* listen 2 the radio ~

listening to: tangled . maroon 5
mood: happieh

soeh, i think i got maself another one who doesn't like me. this one gives me fame. cat casino. awh. i don't like his white shoes either. think we're equal now.

so since norway i've been talknig with dearest judit on phone, she makes my day. awh. ilikejudit. talking with chifflo, being watching korn, limp bizkit and slipknot from rock am ring [videos], tried to categorize photos of : deathstars, slipknot, piggy d. it didn't work out well. wtf is corey doing in my andreas-folder?

well, i've been thinking about what i'm doing for an every day thing. i stalk bands. ahaha. but i've also found out why. it's not because im an obsessed fan (as someone, ahem, said) but because i wanna learn about the metalband lifestyle. interesting...
and i kinda thought so, normally obessed fans would freeeak out when someone from their favourite band replies their mails. well, i don't at all. i only get mad if they ignore me. hah. okay okay, i would die if paul stanley replied me, but that's probably more because i've never mailed paul stanley, and... i kinda don't wanna talk to paul stanley. ahaha.

being listening to robbie williams, korn, maroon 5 and slipknot alot lately. like when i was ten years old. why? dunno.
my life's changing and i can't tell how. afterschool? only a week left, and then no more boring, fucked up public school anymore !
finally my teachers can learn me stuff, jajajaja (as chifflo would say)

i hope judit and chifflo will come by my girlfriend and i in croatia.
bye, lovers, stalkers and haters.
you all make me fam0u$ <3

* Cliaz . Catt ~

* what u mean 2 me ~

Listening to: out alive . illium
Mood: not even tired.

so i'm drinking my morningcoffee, looking at the clock that tells me i have an hour left exactly before i have to go to... norway. recalling the last time, it was not that succesful. hm, think i made a post about it on my old blog cattof9. also on blogspot, if it's got your interest. anyway, i have to go to norway, byglandsfjorden to be exact, and all my crap is packed. there's quite alot. and i'm not sure about how well i'm gonna carry it. did i mention i got exactly an hour sleep this night? from two to three. the grudge 2 (american version) were playing, soeh..

last thing i would like to do before i go away... is telling a little short story about a band i've gotten so addicted to that i don't get it.

deathstars. i don't know why, but it's like i'm living on and for this. i can't stop looking at them, i can't stop hearing them, i lovelovelove when they speak in their videos, and when they smile it sends shivering down my spine.
they've made maybe my favorite song of all the songs in the world, this arclight. i don't know how, i don't even know if i'm supposed to know how, but somehow it seems like it's the best song in the world. i mean... i loved it from the v e r y first time i heard it, and just since i've loved it, i still listen to it at least three times daily and... i've never ever felt like this towards a song.
besides the song there's emil, i'm starting to feel like he's a part of me. i mean, the closest i've gotten to him was a handshake, not even a word, and still i feel like i trust him more than i trust soooo many others. it's crazy, it's insane, it's beautiful. but i guess that's what deathstars is.
the stories they have to tell is the best, the stories i get from reading the lyrics. it paints art into my head, art of emotions and realistic fact. anyone who loves deathstars just that little pinch more than normal lvoe for a band would agree with me that deathstars is so much of deeper meaning than just darkness and glitter.
actually... i think deathstars and an asylum is quite the same. now, you wonder about that sexchild ~
wish i had more time to write alot more, but i don't. bah. so i guess i'll jsut say goodbye now, and have fun until thursdag where i get back.

* Cliaz . Catt ~

bergh ~

Listening to: opium . deathstars
Mood: horny





30 is the new 20 ~
andreas, how the hell can u be so hot ?

* Cliaz . Catt ~