* mrs. lifestyle of rich&famous ~

Listening to: die young . piggy D
Mood: normal

my sister bianca and her boyfriend corey/steffen came to visit today. very nice. wish i had the guts to tell her soon that im bisexual. sigh.
no one from my family knows. don't know why i'm scared, i mean, i tell anybody else? sigh.

then there's that love. i mean, i have a girlfriend, but i don't love her. i'm in love with her, and i think that's the first step to really love her. but i do love her in a friendly way, i just need that final push to love her like love.

i woke up to watch brother bear II. it's a sweet movie. bears. heh.
my socalled 'friends' are getting on my nerves. the most of them are pure bullshit. wish i didn't know them //might say a million words but n1 of em r true// well i miss pongo now. and soon i will find something interesting to write in this blog.

oh yeah. i'm planning to do the same thing andreas bergh did. to get self-destructive and use my body and mind for different tests. let's see where this will go...

* Cliaz . Catt ~